Change

Soon I will be going back to Colorado to visit my family that lives out there. I’ll only be heading out there for a weekend, but it should be a lot of fun. As the day that I leave approaches I’ve found it interesting on how small amounts of fear can creep into my life regarding the trip. It’s not a desperate fear or something that overwhelms me, but rather a small and slow fear. I am afraid that I’ve change and that my family has changed and that some of the connection points are lost. It’s odd to be afraid of this because I know that I’ve changed and that my family has changed, I want control over the change and I don’t have it. I want a static control over a dynamic relationship, doesn’t really work.